WHAT I DIDN'T EXPECT

The stories I've heard, the movies I had seen all mention 'pregnancy glow' and feeling 'beautiful'. I think I've missed out on the whole pregnancy glow, and I definitely did not feel beautiful what's so ever. No one told me my hair would fall out during and after pregnancy, no one told me I would feel bloated 24/7 and I would be running to the bathroom to urinate every 2 seconds. No one told me I would be constantly tired. No one told me when I leave the hospital I will be coming home in diapers as well. No one told me my lower back would constantly ache and my fingers would swell. No one told me just before you go into labour you will feel pressure in your ass hole and while giving birth, you would feel like your going to do a number two. I still don't understand why it's called morning sickness, when it also comes randomly throughout the day. I hated how I couldn't control my emotions. I hated how my feet would ache after 10 steps. I hated how I was too scared to laugh or sneeze, because I might wee myself and I hated how I was always gassy. I hated how I felt like a sumo wrestler when I walked.

Now I look back, after pulling my son and daughter out and onto my chest - everything I hated was long forgotten. The love I have for my kids are beyond words. Watching them take in the world when they first go outside, watching them grow from babies to little humans. Seeing their determined little faces when they run and to them they probably feel like Usain Bolt. Sometimes their cry face can be so adorable, and all you want to do is hold them close to your chest to assure them they will be forever safe in your arms. The look on their face when they accomplished something, is truly amazing. I love being a mother and I would never change it for the world. Not only did these little humans gave me happiness, they also gave me a purpose.