FIRST THREE MONTHS AND OUR ROUTINE (SO FAR)

My partner had to go back to work 3 weeks after our daughter was born, and to be honest I wasn't look forward for that day. I was worried I wouldn't be able to handle a toddler and a newborn on my own. I was, and still am breastfeeding my son and I was worried he would want to feed at the same time or he would get jealous. The first day with just the kids and I, went really well and wasn't what I expected it to be. Now I look back and realised I put unnecessary stress on myself, and possibly on the kids and my partner. Not going to lie there are days that harder than others, but it's all worth it in the end. If you are struggling I promise you it gets easier. The only advice I can give to you is don't over think it like I did because it will make the situation harder, and your kids vibe off your energy. Happy mum, happy kids.

For the first couple of months was good and exhausting. I felt like I was constantly breastfeeding. When my daughter finished feeding, my son would want a feed and when I was done feeding him, she would want a feed and so on. I felt like a 'cow'. I never knew how draining it could be. I felt bad for my partner when he would want a cuddle, when he gets home from work and I would say no because the whole day I constantly had a little human attached to me. Eventually I stopped feeling exhausted and got used to it. My son is slowly not wanting breast milk as much as he did a month ago. I would breastfeed him in the morning, around lunch time when he wants to go to sleep and at night time before bed. Yes, I did try the bottle and both of my kids disagreed.

OUR WEEKDAY ROUTINE - Depending on what time my partner starts work I wake up two hours before he leaves for work, and during this time I have a shower and get ready for the day. While I am getting ready my partner organises the kids before he leaves for work. When my partner leaves for work, I put Evelyn in her bouncer, and Winston goes and gets his own plate and fork and sits at the table patiently while I make him breakfast.

After breakfast, I get the kids and myself ready for our morning walk and it normally takes us 30 minutes to an hour to leave home. I change both of the kids nappies before we leave the apartment. EVERY TIME, without a doubt. Before we leave, my son always does a number two and after changing my son's dirty nappy. Not long after my daughter would projectile vomit onto the tiles and all over me. Finally we leave the apartment, and we go for a walk down to our local coffee shop, and I get a coffee to go and we slowly make our way home.

When we get home my son would ask me to put a movie on (at the moment Shrek is his favourite), and I would breastfeed my daughter and put her to sleep. After putting her to sleep, depending on my son he would want to play or he would want to be breastfed and go to sleep. When both of the kids are napping, I would go catch up on housework and by the time I finish housework the kids would wake up. When the kids wake up, I make lunch for my son and while he's eating, I breastfeed my daughter. After lunch, the kids and I would go for another walk. When we get home, depending on the kids they either have a bath or play and wait for their dad to come home from work.

OUR WEEKEND ROUTINE - If we wake up around 6:00am, we will go to our local fruit and veg market and somehow we always spend at least two hours at the markets. If we wake up around 8:00am, we take our time getting ready for our day and eventually we make ourselves out of the door. We will go get breakfast at our favourite cafe called Caffeine Kings or Paddock Bakery. After breakfast, depending on the kids we either stop at the shopping mall or take the kids home for a nap and from then we do whatever the kids want.